what to do when you are overthinking.

the only oneness that worth experience

as you and the universe are in a union

a grander holiness

truth is revealed - an awakening

people come and go

sometimes means forever

forever leave, forever stay

and you know, there will be that particular void

that will never be filled anymore

a void that will always empty

a presence that is irreplaceable

let go of trying, darling

let go of searching

because what you will find next

will never fit the prototype

feel that void

do not fill it - feel it

jakarta, february 22, 2020

Crash Landing On You: A Bibliophile POV

Ri Jeong Hyeok and Yoon Se-Ri

                        

Your most loved Korean drama featuring your most loved thing in the world? What could be better than that lovely duo?!

As one of the most watched show on Netflix, no one could deny the chemistry between Ri Jeong Hyeok (Hyun Bin) and Yoon Se-Ri (Son Ye-jin), that could bring enough electricity to North Korea, that's overpouring through the 16 episodes of love. 

As for me, a hopelessly romantic book lover, there is one thing that's been capturing my heart and eyes, that is: BOOKS.

about the sky.

i pour my feelings to the sky

and she plays all of the memories

places that i have been

laughters that i have shared

people that i have met

funny how this silence feels really serene

i never thought i would say

for the first time

emptiness feels like a fresh start

jakarta, february 22, 2020

A Nameless Woman at the Well

She is a faithful unknown

Genuine curiosity

When she got the opportunity

What every religious men

In their long prayers and worships

Could have ever asked for

She went to the well
Of the most well-known
In the silence under the bright sun
We left with her father’s name
She was a daughter of Jacob
A nameless daughter

feelings: an extraction.

every night before the old month changed into the new, i would pray. new month brings mysteries and the unexpected. i hated it. i mean the last word.

every morning on the first day of the fresh new month, i would chant this mantra.
"i only want happiness. pour it over me, for this month."

that was my hope. that little hope kept me going from one month to another. because imagining how i would pass this year is like attracting nightmares and bad dreams for me. so, i took just the baby step. little and firm.